Every work at home mom knows life can be a crazy, and yet often it’s very lonely business to care for your children, especially before they are old enough to talk. And, while it’s a great privilege to get to enjoy these moments with my kids, there are moments when I just crave having someone to talk to.
Thankfully, my middle child learned to talk early for her age, and is further blessed to be so articulate. She’s spunky and has shown an interest in many activities that I enjoy. So, for the last two years that she’s been chatting away, I’ve had a mini companion to follow me around and share so much with.
I’ve recently been experiencing a jumble of feelings with the school year starting. This is the first year she’ll be leaving my side and heading off to school with her brother. I keep reminding myself I’ve been through this before with him, and just as he adjusted, so did I. It’s good for us both, right?
On one hand I lose someone to talk to and interact with, and on the other there will be less messes, tantrums, and hauling everyone around while struggling to run a million errands without losing a kid…or my mind. Even though I know she’ll learn so much and interact with other kids her age, part of me is heartbroken to know that my baby won’t be with me all day.
And honestly, I’m feeling the added sadness of knowing this means it won’t be much longer before my youngest will be following behind her sister and brother. The beginning of every school year is a reminder of how fast they’ve grown in such a short period of time. In a blink of an eye my babies have grown into children and are more independent.
I plan on savoring this next year, since I get to have the youngest all to myself. I know for her this is long overdue. Because my first two were spaced out five years apart, they each had their own special time with me. My youngest, who was born so closely behind her sister, has had to share the spotlight with the other two. Now, however, I’ll be able to spend the school hours focused just on her and having special one on one time. I am extremely excited about that, because the time I was able to get with each of my first two was full of priceless bonding moments that I wouldn’t trade for anything.
So as everything changes, as it inevitably will, I’ll sit here remembering just how lucky I am for these moments, missing the time passed, and enjoying that which is and is to come.